end it

end it (all)

To kill oneself. If they diagnose me with a terminal illness, I'd rather end it all now, instead of suffering. Poor Dave is just too intense about his schoolwork. He's ready to end it all if he gets a B+! This is the message to all the young people who are thinking of trying to escape the pain by just ending it: it gets better.
See also: end
Farlex Dictionary of Idioms.

end it (all)

Euph. to kill oneself. He had been depressed for months. He decided to end it all. I'm no good to anybody. I'm going to end it. Don't try to talk me out of it.
See also: end
McGraw-Hill Dictionary of American Idioms and Phrasal Verbs.
See also:
  • kick oneself
  • kick yourself
  • wash (one's) hands of (someone or something)
  • wash hands of
  • wash one's hands of
  • wash your hands of
  • wash your hands of somebody/something
  • wash your hands of something/someone
  • for (one's) (own) sake
  • for sake
References in periodicals archive
"But I am not worried because in the end it's always three parts in all the situations in football - the players, the club that owns the players, and if another club want some players, and in the end it's to be agreed on different things and try to make everyone happy with the decision.
It's amazing, this feeling of winning and just pushing through everything and being our best in the end it's amazing.'
But in the end it's Jane who manages to surprise him, leaving the pair quite emotional.
"Wind River" adds up, but in the end it's not all that exciting.
"But in the end it's better to draw 0-0 than to lose, but we've definitely got more regrets than them.
But in the end it's got to come from Jack and his performances."
Here is what the SBJ wrote about Jones: "His team may struggle, he lost a battle with the league over salary cap penalties, and sometimes the media may not be kind, but in the end it's still the Cowboys and he is still Jerry Jones.
If it was cheaper I would have passed by now - Becky Clarke, 18, a Middlesbrough College student from Park End It's too much.
It's fine for fans of this brand of horror and it has obvious French style but in the end it's the same old, same old.
"But in the end it's not all about money, it's about where you enjoy playing football.
In the end it's a team effort and it is overwhelming.
"In the end it's about medals but for the experts you look also into potential and how the team as a bigger group has achieved.
There might be a lot of pain - but in the end it's for the best.
In the end it's about the dancers--what they made out of it together with me in the studio in Aspen." --Jorma Elo
"In the end it's not how nice the walls are or how high the ceiling is," he said.